... And maybe it will be

Yesterday everything looked like it was going to be ok.

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As i stare into this empty space, i cant understand why we would be in a such a place of pain, sadness and loneliness. Why would God put us here, i dont get it and I dont want to. Im sick of hearing the words everything will get better, because it wont. Everything gets worse. The minute we are born is no different than the minute we die, and the only thing that does matter is what we do in between. Im still trying to figure out what pain is for, why do we get sad, what is the point. I would recommend praying, but God only listens and He talks back in a whisper, but sometimes I cant hear because of all this shit going on around my life. I feel sorry for the people that are constantly trying to figure out why bad things happen to them. If it doesnt kill you it makes you stronger, right? Stronger for what? More pain? and then what, more pain? Is there a reason for this? I dont really think so.... I hate it.

High of 64

I just looked out the window and it is such a beautiful day. Right in the middle of October too. Its like finding $50 at the park, probably never gunna happen again..

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- I judge my family and everyone else so much its not even funny

- I hate hearing the word no

- I wish i could still say Jesus is my best friend, i kinda feel like its fading

- I dont want to go back to Timothy

Christianity

Some people view Christianity as a cult, some view it as a Sunday morning thing, some view it as a life style. I view Christianity as a life style, a relationship with a God who just wants a relationship with you, it doesnt have to be a crazy, weird, cult like thing. God commands us to make disciples of all nations, that means he wants us to make a lot of friends and just live like your a Christian because theyll see that and notice a difference. Dont try forcing things down peoples throats or excluding them because they dont believe the same things. Dont judge a book by its cover and dont throw it away even if its not good. We can always learn something from everyone.

So if your wondering...

If you guys remember the Facebook Status post, ive decided to continue that idea and i will be doing a weekly "Facebook Status" if you guys get the idea.

I love and hate my life right now

Life isnt about being deep, its about getting out of a hole.

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Whats on your mind? There are a million things id love to say for that question, but of course i dont because i will get judged and no one will like me, heres a few.

My best friends are liars

Im disgusted by my school

Im a very bad Christian

I love myself a little to much

Sometimes I pretend alot

I cant stand people who are better than me

i dont really know what to say, its sad...

Its kinda funny

Last night was Homecoming, one of the most fun, sweaty, hot nights of my life. Of course Sunday morning Im exhausted, of course Im expected to go to Church with my family, duh. But as Im showering, they leave, everyone in my family leaves to go to church. This is hilarious, every Sunday for the past 2 years I've been going to Church sunday mornings by myself, no family in sight, I just think its sort of ironic. Which brings me to my next point, you don't have to go to Church to worship God, God isn't locked up in a Church so that when your their you find Him and have a spiritual moment. God is EVERYWHERE. No matter where you are, God is with you. We weren't meant to just worship and be with God on Sundays, we were meant to be with God every second of our lives. So many people get caught up in being at church, getting ready for church, bringing a Bible, that they forget that Church was invented just to be with other Christ followers during the week, sharing our love for who He is and what He's done for us, but I mean if your parents forget to take you I guess you can do it alone, or blog about it...